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2011-11-01T06:16:00.000-07:00

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where it begins, where it ends

2010-08-12T03:49:00.000-07:00

"I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in,
Now I surrender.
Yes, I surrender"

-Mighty to Save by Hillsong

One Month

It's not long enough for myself to enjoy but it's long enough for me to be honest to myself

Looking back from young til now
I need to say Hallelujah!!
Praise to God that I was a healthy and full of grace in my life
No matter what I have done especially when I walked into a wrong path, God still loves me :)
God never abandon me in the middle of no where put God pull me back to his arms

There's nothing better than praying to God

One night I had a dream
I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene I noticed two sets
of footprints in the sand,
one belonging to me
and the other to my Lord.
When the last scene of my life shot before me
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
There was only on set of footprints.
I realized that this was at the lowest
and saddest times in my life.
This always bothered me
and I questioned the Lord
about my dilemma.
"Lord, you told me when I decided to follow You,
You would walk and talk with me all the way.
But I'm aware that during the most troublesome
times of my life there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why, when I needed You most,
you leave me."
He whispered, "My precious, precious child,
I love you and will never leave you
never, ever during your times of trial and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints
It was then that I carried you."

- Footprints in the Sand

I always has a dream that I will have a happily life forever and ever
haha...this is just TOO IDEALISTIC and native
In the past 31 days
I knew I was walking away from God especially when I was in spiritual low tide in my life
I knew this wasn't the path way that God had prepared for me

Making this decision is hard enough for me
But I know letting you understand me is even difficult
I chose to admit and be honest that I will never regret!
All I can say is I'm so sorry
Sincerely apologize
I know asking you to understand me is cruel but hope you do

Last but not least,
I'm ready to my life and just praise God for what he has done to me throughout the happy and hard times :D

love,
ching sze

Lonely Christmas

2009-11-25T08:14:00.000-08:00

Longing for the glimpse in my life which is way harder than anything in my life.

I shall congra. my dear friend CHUT POOL! :)
at the same time I shall celebrate once again to my single life.
19 years, I am always seeking for an answer. "WHAT ON EARTH IS WRONG WITH ME?"
however, this is like a closing question. NEVER EVER has an answer...
no matter what others tell me, I will never believe. Not because I dont trust you buddies but I dont trust myself.

Yea, you are right. I have NO confident to myself or anything I do. I act strong but I am not strong either...
I guess that's me...being a single loser all the time. Don't worry about me buddies, I am gonna be okay! Not the first time ;)

That's how I am going to comfort myself in another way making myself emo as well...

2008-08-17T23:53:00.000-07:00

Uni and residential applications are basically driving me CRAZY!

as well as other random stuffs pissed me off.
i can't believe i pay for all more than you but you just take it off easily.
don't put on a face that u care about me. i know you feel good to tease about me in that way.
what a shame. i'm not easily beatable!
i don't give a damn.
one day i will take back what i should have.
the most ridiculous thing is....neiwaoneibang, jungngfarnhork. darnhaineigingyinhorehuida! WAO! NGO ZHENG HAI PUI FUK NEI LOR.LI D YEA HAI NEI SIN JO DUK CHUT GEI. NGO NG WUI GUM HAO MIN PEI LOR.

i just want to leave this hell ASAP.

18th Birthday

2008-08-06T04:28:00.000-07:00

first of all, I need to thank you everyone who sang hbd song to me n wishes me =)

specially thanks for helen, vivi, phyllis, tina, jess, levina, huan jing n janet.

THANK YOU FOR THE LOVELY PRESENTS. I LOVE THEM SO MUCHHHHH <3 MWAH

but a bit sad of not getting my family's present. i hope it's on the way to here.

pix will be uploaded later =)

2008-08-03T05:23:00.000-07:00

neihuijorbin?

ngohosernhosernhoserntungneigongyea...

ngohohaofuigorchimotungneigong...egaupjuupjuhosunfu, jungyiuegayuetleiyuetdormuntai

ngogorkduklipaiggeijomeidoumoyunjunge

ngongsernjoitouhoyundeidarnhaijodggeingjungegeiyea

ngojaoleifartdin

horkyihoichingtungyauchingmoyudfongmeenhaiokay.

2008-07-31T00:08:00.000-07:00

人真的是很軟弱...
這個星期的我...崩潰了

活了差不多十八年...
從來沒有承受過這麼大的壓力
自己, 家人和學校...

PLC是一間很強的學校
同學們不是一般的聰明, 而是資優和勤奮好學
無論我再怎樣努力...也永遠不會和他們並列
I'm such a loser...

同時間煩惱大學的application...
對自己的將來很迷茫

2008-07-26T19:09:00.000-07:00

a nice voice can seriously touch my heart no matter what nationality you are. :)

still searching.
still waiting.
I wish it will happen to me someday. :P

zomg. I really want to talk to you now cos I regret what I've done.
I know you are the only one who can help me out.
or else I don't think I will link with the group anymore.
[lo sei ]

another week passed.
SACs are coming up like crazy.
Start to cope with the school life again.
I need to stop thinking about home and other stuffs.

Recently motivation is GETTING BACK TO HKU.
it's hard. it's way harder than getting into Melb. U
people might think my idea is quite stupid cos I don't want to stay in melb.
however, I have my reason.
HK is always my home no matter what's happened.
maybe less freedom in there but the most important things are all there.
I will always get support from there.
Facing all the stresses and pressure by myself is simply painful.
I don't like being lonely.

summer vacation seems great in HK.
and I'm still in this hole.

fighting fighting.
I will get through this soon!

2008-07-17T03:52:00.000-07:00

since i'm extremely bored from studying chem ( but i still don't get the theory...)
well...i feel like continuing the story of "us" today :P

someone is "thirsty" of searching handsome guys. cos by seeing them will make her feels better. LOL.
2nd one is still crazy about someone. but less obsession then before :P
and me, i'm not thinking about this at all which is pretty sad. however, few days ago, my horoscope told me that 愛情運 : 旅途中邂逅的一位外國人，對方Email給你吐露腹意，讓你大吃一驚。i saw this exactly on the day when i'm back to this shit hole... obviously, this will never happen. if it does, probs i'll be like wtf.

i miss my sms buddy :(
i still have so much to tell u. sadly, this holiday doesn't have enough time. screw it!

8 hours continuous lecture...

2008-06-01T06:05:00.000-07:00

tsfx is actually helpful except, it's a bit way too long :P

興奮過後...感到格外寂寞...

maybe I shouldn't be over-react.
cos I feel like I should think about myself now. (worried)
the date being an adult is coming n I WILL NEVER LET MY 18th BE SAD/REGRETFUL!
I WILL NEVER LET THAT HAPPENED.

basically my 17th is a MESS.
everything just suddenly goes wrong.

btw, it's nearly a year already.
sort of proud of myself that I've overcome a year :D
actually this shouldn't be anything proud/even celebrate.
I shouldn't mention it anymore, just let myself to feel the pain once again.
that might be the stupid-est thing I've done in my life.
however, if that never happens, I will never let it go. :)

let it go, let it flow...

Congratulation! =D

2008-05-30T23:52:00.000-07:00

omggggg. last night, basically this morning. hahahahaha.
anyway, congra. to my dearest frd :)
finally you guys get together :)
鄒媽媽見到你地一齊太開心! :)
wish you n you all the bestttt :)
lalalalala.

I shall continue the story :P

I'm a bit over react + high these few days usual :P I'm glad to see people getting together, especially all my friends. except one. LOL.
The one next door said I probs will be V. HIGH when my turn comes XD I utterly agree :P

hahahahaha. I found a photo which is taken during the easter holiday from ariel's site :)

i miss you my babe

xoxo,
chingsze

Why girls' school in aus is so much different than hk?

2008-05-27T06:41:00.000-07:00

I had been studying in a girl school more than a decade. no joking.
I never think life sucks in hk even I was in a girls' school.
However, school life in here is totally different.

The only thing that I can tell the difference between ssgc n plc is......
gossip n bitch fight(s) in here are just TERRIBLE.

I always love ssgc as people are so nice n friendly.
seriously, they're friendly.
We are not phony at all.
If we dislike you, we won't get in contact with you.
so straight forward.

I had been here for almost 3 yrs.
I'm totally overwhelmed by EVERYTHING.
Sometimes, I hate myself too.
Doing something that is totally not "me".
Maybe that is the only way I can try to fit into this community.
I wish I can be myself like when I was back home.

I believe culture shock.
Even though sometimes I tried to be/act like part of them, it doesn't work.
...And accept it.
But some of the believes are just wrong.
How can I persuade myself?

Or maybe that's my own problem.
I wish someone would understand my feelings now.
Do not feel like belonging to a place where I am living.
Harsh, tough and difficult.

since when I've been blogging everyday?!?!? LOL.
need a place for me to spill out my deepest feelings.
the best place is probs here :)

Year 12 is not easy at all.

2008-05-26T05:23:00.000-07:00

these few days I tried to be good friends with bio & chem.
hahaha. I think u know what's the outcome of that.

I stress about the exams but I am still procrastinating.

Year 12 should be studying my ass off.
But I'm still v.v.v.v.v. SLACK.
which it is not meant to be...

well. As my neighbour likes the entry "being single is..."
so let me continue the story :DD

Sadly, I am still no goal, no target, nothing happened to me except recently I was entertained by a blog :) currently was watching the BEST "reality show" EVER. lalala.
My next door roomie probs still stuck in the same situation.
the opposite roomie was quickly moving on now. Joy and faithfulness was surrounding her fully.
be continue....

who knows what happening next?
just let it go, let it flow
life will be easier :)

love chingsze

I wish I can help in China now.

2008-05-24T03:28:00.000-07:00

I have never had such a strong feeling of helping China.
Sichuan needs our help.
Everyday when I read the news, I almost cried.
The only thing I can do now is praying for them all the time.
I know God always loves China and miracles are happening everyday.
I will keep them in my prayer everyday.

Despite, may God bless the coming Beijing Olympics too.
I miss home now.

love chingsze

Being Single is...

2008-05-22T06:24:00.000-07:00

hahaha. to a lot of u maybe this seems strange.
but to three of us are pretty sad in this situation.

i'm the one who has NO target at all. basically hopeless to everything.
the one next door is always dreaming about the cutiest guy ever. LOL
the one opposite the second one is apparently 'one-sided' love.

we always bring up the topic with no reasons n getting upset n worries about that.
maybe that's part of my life.

luckily wireless go forever n ever.
i still have "something" to depend on.

okay. let's talk something happier :DD
recently obsession is Gossip Girl.
i heart the sexy voice 'you know you love me, xoxo, gossip girl'
either the book or series are awesome.
i wish i'm in NY/London/Milan/Paris/ somewhere flooded with fashion n partiess :D

love, chingsze

2008-05-12T05:13:00.000-07:00

請不要歪曲別人的說話!

我們只說了"佢好勁!"
並沒有說"佢好型..."

就是經常因這些誇大的說話而傳出不同的謠言

十分想家...
完全沒有奮鬥的心態

2008-04-30T02:22:00.000-07:00

F* OFF BITCH!

ngo dim gai chi chi dou yiu zhao nei!
DIM GAI?!?! nei yau ng hai ngo bin gor.
dim gai nei gong mei dou duk...ngo mud dou ng duk?!?!
ngo dou yiu yau g gei gei si garn.
jung yiu mo lah lah bei yun lao!
hor lun nei sor yao yea dou ho gwo ngo but ngo g dou at least ngo ng hai ho chi nei gum ZI C!!
ngo wui always consider other but ng wui ho chi nei gum selfish.
nei hui formal dai sai ahh...ngo ng sai hui mei e +!
ngo sern gong ngo dui nei ho ng hai bit yin!! hai ngo ng sern tung d gum naive gei yun zang.
ng ho e wai bit yun dui nei ho hai bit yin!
我忍夠!
ngo ho loi mo gum bao cho...li chi reli dor tse nei bei li gor opportunity ngo lao yun!!

STOP!

2008-04-11T02:47:00.000-07:00

please STOP SAY THAT i wish i can study oversea, because there is NO PRESSURE!
that is TOTALLY WRONG!

if there's no pressure, that person must be crazy or not studying AT ALL.

seriously, PLEASE x 10000000000000000 do not make such an assumption ANYMORE.
this HYPOTHESIS IS DEFINITELY WRONG!

slack...

2008-04-10T04:32:00.000-07:00

i'm SO SLACK!
i think this is not a year 12 should be...
however, this happens on me.

need to find motivations and being SUPER productive this coming termssss.

hmmmm. people in SW has been very emo/moody lately.
want to help them but don't know how to take action.
i'm not a good person to comfort people. i feel bad about that :(
what should i do?

2008-03-15T16:51:00.000-07:00

time flies...
it's nearly the end of term 1.

I wish there are "special memories" happened in this holiday.
I admit that I'm so eager to "that".
but know it wouldn't be happening soon or later in this yr.
I feel so lost about "that" after last yr.
sometime I do regret about my decision(s).
I know I shouldn't "live" in those phantasms anymore.
those are not true and whenever I think about it, it hurts me once again.
It's time to let it go.

2008-02-27T03:47:00.000-08:00

it's a small world.

stresses and pressure are finally coming!
i know it sounds terrible but i need to go thur once in my life :)

R.I.P

2008-02-20T02:37:00.000-08:00

R.I.P to my dearest grandpa.

it's too sudden for me.
haven't cried so badly after mid-yr of last 2007.
when mum tell me how much you care about me and you don't know how to express to me.

i feel so bad that i can't see you for the last min.
i really want to go home.
i'm so scared i will forget how you look and talk like.

2008-02-14T16:45:00.001-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!

i've received the BEST VALENTINE'S DAY PRESENT EVER from my dear Helen

2008-02-11T03:34:00.000-08:00

WOW. it has been a week and more for school already.
so far so good XD except too much work... :S

i miss home.
i miss my family and friends :(
i miss yummy home food :(
i miss everything.

omgoish! VALENTINES' DAY is coming soon :(
as usual...no valentine.
whatever! i will make it to be an awesome day even i've no valentine :)

talk too much :P it's photos time! yay.
let's start with boarder's picnic

Investiture Assembly

FInally i'm a yr 12

Happy Chinese New Year!

2008-02-07T03:35:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CNY!

i prefer to have cny at home.
i miss those days :(
wish everyone have a nice holiday :)
gonna upload heaps of photos 'someday' :P

2008-01-31T02:54:00.000-08:00

back to melbourne.
gonna be yr 12 tmr.
last yr....

2007-12-23T18:29:00.000-08:00

i nearly forget i've this blog :P
this is like my MONTHLY blog XDD
can't believe i've been half way of the holiday..
heading off to bangkok tmr :)
hope i can meet up with maimai then she can bring me to SHOP XD

2007-11-16T16:07:00.000-08:00

hahahahahaha.
as no one will read my post so i'm going to write my own private stuffs :P

YES! this time i did it :)
there's no love, hate and jealousy.
i admit that in the past i'm pretty upset but not anymore :)

i won't forget how's the feeling in those days.
i won't cry anymore.
i won't be weak :)
i won't deny that i have deeply in love.
i won't regret.

i will remember those happy days :)
i will remember how's the feeling of one-sided love.
i will always remember the special event happens which makes me fall in love with. :)

but i'm over it already! :)

i'm looking forward to the future :)
now and forever.

Year 11 Formal :)

2007-08-21T02:56:00.000-07:00

18 Aug 2007*

Formal finally is over =))

this thing annoys me for a while x))

but on that nite i enjoyed the time except the last song + my feet hurt like hell!!

oh well it's my very first time to attend something like that x))

girls look extremely GORGEOUS and BEAUTIFUL on that nite!

i was so shcoked when i saw everyone!! *o*

everyone is so pretty =)) let's talk abt the schedule on that day

went to city around 11am sth

and rush to buy snacks for after formal XDD

again...rushing to the apartment and left our stuffs in there

RUSH back to boardo x))

we were rushing in all the time xP

by the time i got back, shower, blow hair, settle down and get ready to change n put on make up :))

well...i cbb to do anything to my hair coz i don't really have time xD

however when i put on my make up...

my face white like "zhing ji" XDD

but i can't do anything to it so juz leave it alone LOL.

WOOHOO! around 6.30 the limo came!!

the limo is SUPER cool!!

it's PHOTOS TIME!!

let's rock the party XDD

my day X)

2007-08-06T04:44:00.000-07:00

I'M SEVENTEEN!!

a pretty large no. XD

first of all i need to say that THANK YOU very much for all the wishes n presentssss :)

I LOVE YOU ALL <3

though this is my first time that my birthday is not on "summer" holiday.

but i think it's even BETTER xDD

photos time*

well seems like the photobucket isn't working...so i will update it later =)

sweet day*

2007-08-04T05:34:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to MKS <3

woohoo =)

shopping is always the best thing in the world x)

though i've stacks of hw and revision to go...

but who cares?! xD

HELEN SO*

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! <3

thx for the yum choc xDD

it's so yum n hung fuk :))

2 more days to go :))

new start =)

2007-08-01T03:50:00.000-07:00

1st day of August :)

i would like to say that August is my MONTH x)

5 days until my 17th Birthday how excited is that!!

WOOHOO xP

i can't stand of no blogging life anymore :(

therefore i decided to create this new blogger :)

i need somewhere to release my feeling x)

though i won't expect a lot of ppl will read this

but it's a place where i can WRITE STUFFS XD

apparently my life is like this photo

i'm so moody, gery...

i've no motivation to do anything and this is BAD

MOTIVATION MOTIVATION MOTIVATION

i miss home, Hong Kong

i miss my family

i miss my lovely friends

i miss the food that my mum cooked it for me

i miss shopping in cwb

i miss my bed XD

i miss the days that i hang around with my friends

basically i miss everything in Hong Kong :(

I MISS YOU ALL OF YOU HEAPS AND ALWAYS LOVE YOU <3