Why girls' school in aus is so much different than hk?

I had been studying in a girl school more than a decade. no joking.
I never think life sucks in hk even I was in a girls' school.
However, school life in here is totally different.

The only thing that I can tell the difference between ssgc n plc is......
gossip n bitch fight(s) in here are just TERRIBLE.

I always love ssgc as people are so nice n friendly.
seriously, they're friendly.
We are not phony at all.
If we dislike you, we won't get in contact with you.
so straight forward.

I had been here for almost 3 yrs.
I'm totally overwhelmed by EVERYTHING.
Sometimes, I hate myself too.
Doing something that is totally not "me".
Maybe that is the only way I can try to fit into this community.
I wish I can be myself like when I was back home.

I believe culture shock.
Even though sometimes I tried to be/act like part of them, it doesn't work.
...And accept it.
But some of the believes are just wrong.
How can I persuade myself?

Or maybe that's my own problem.
I wish someone would understand my feelings now.
Do not feel like belonging to a place where I am living.
Harsh, tough and difficult.




since when I've been blogging everyday?!?!? LOL.
need a place for me to spill out my deepest feelings.
the best place is probs here :)