Uni and residential applications are basically driving me CRAZY!
as well as other random stuffs pissed me off.
i can't believe i pay for all more than you but you just take it off easily.
don't put on a face that u care about me. i know you feel good to tease about me in that way.
what a shame. i'm not easily beatable!
i don't give a damn.
one day i will take back what i should have.
the most ridiculous thing is....neiwaoneibang, jungngfarnhork. darnhaineigingyinhorehuida! WAO! NGO ZHENG HAI PUI FUK NEI LOR.LI D YEA HAI NEI SIN JO DUK CHUT GEI. NGO NG WUI GUM HAO MIN PEI LOR.
i just want to leave this hell ASAP.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
18th Birthday
first of all, I need to thank you everyone who sang hbd song to me n wishes me =)
specially thanks for helen, vivi, phyllis, tina, jess, levina, huan jing n janet.
THANK YOU FOR THE LOVELY PRESENTS. I LOVE THEM SO MUCHHHHH <3 MWAH
but a bit sad of not getting my family's present. i hope it's on the way to here.
pix will be uploaded later =)
specially thanks for helen, vivi, phyllis, tina, jess, levina, huan jing n janet.
THANK YOU FOR THE LOVELY PRESENTS. I LOVE THEM SO MUCHHHHH <3 MWAH
but a bit sad of not getting my family's present. i hope it's on the way to here.
pix will be uploaded later =)
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
a nice voice can seriously touch my heart no matter what nationality you are. :)
still searching.
still waiting.
I wish it will happen to me someday. :P
zomg. I really want to talk to you now cos I regret what I've done.
I know you are the only one who can help me out.
or else I don't think I will link with the group anymore.
[lo sei ]
another week passed.
SACs are coming up like crazy.
Start to cope with the school life again.
I need to stop thinking about home and other stuffs.
Recently motivation is GETTING BACK TO HKU.
it's hard. it's way harder than getting into Melb. U
people might think my idea is quite stupid cos I don't want to stay in melb.
however, I have my reason.
HK is always my home no matter what's happened.
maybe less freedom in there but the most important things are all there.
I will always get support from there.
Facing all the stresses and pressure by myself is simply painful.
I don't like being lonely.
summer vacation seems great in HK.
and I'm still in this hole.
fighting fighting.
I will get through this soon!
still searching.
still waiting.
I wish it will happen to me someday. :P
zomg. I really want to talk to you now cos I regret what I've done.
I know you are the only one who can help me out.
or else I don't think I will link with the group anymore.
[lo sei ]
another week passed.
SACs are coming up like crazy.
Start to cope with the school life again.
I need to stop thinking about home and other stuffs.
Recently motivation is GETTING BACK TO HKU.
it's hard. it's way harder than getting into Melb. U
people might think my idea is quite stupid cos I don't want to stay in melb.
however, I have my reason.
HK is always my home no matter what's happened.
maybe less freedom in there but the most important things are all there.
I will always get support from there.
Facing all the stresses and pressure by myself is simply painful.
I don't like being lonely.
summer vacation seems great in HK.
and I'm still in this hole.
fighting fighting.
I will get through this soon!
Thursday, July 17, 2008
since i'm extremely bored from studying chem ( but i still don't get the theory...)
well...i feel like continuing the story of "us" today :P
someone is "thirsty" of searching handsome guys. cos by seeing them will make her feels better. LOL.
2nd one is still crazy about someone. but less obsession then before :P
and me, i'm not thinking about this at all which is pretty sad. however, few days ago, my horoscope told me that 愛情運 : 旅途中邂逅的一位外國人，對方Email給你吐露腹意，讓你大吃一驚。i saw this exactly on the day when i'm back to this shit hole... obviously, this will never happen. if it does, probs i'll be like wtf.
i miss my sms buddy :(
i still have so much to tell u. sadly, this holiday doesn't have enough time. screw it!
well...i feel like continuing the story of "us" today :P
someone is "thirsty" of searching handsome guys. cos by seeing them will make her feels better. LOL.
2nd one is still crazy about someone. but less obsession then before :P
and me, i'm not thinking about this at all which is pretty sad. however, few days ago, my horoscope told me that 愛情運 : 旅途中邂逅的一位外國人，對方Email給你吐露腹意，讓你大吃一驚。i saw this exactly on the day when i'm back to this shit hole... obviously, this will never happen. if it does, probs i'll be like wtf.
i miss my sms buddy :(
i still have so much to tell u. sadly, this holiday doesn't have enough time. screw it!
Sunday, June 1, 2008
8 hours continuous lecture...
tsfx is actually helpful except, it's a bit way too long :P
興奮過後...感到格外寂寞...
maybe I shouldn't be over-react.
cos I feel like I should think about myself now. (worried)
the date being an adult is coming n I WILL NEVER LET MY 18th BE SAD/REGRETFUL!
I WILL NEVER LET THAT HAPPENED.
basically my 17th is a MESS.
everything just suddenly goes wrong.
btw, it's nearly a year already.
sort of proud of myself that I've overcome a year :D
actually this shouldn't be anything proud/even celebrate.
I shouldn't mention it anymore, just let myself to feel the pain once again.
that might be the stupid-est thing I've done in my life.
however, if that never happens, I will never let it go. :)
let it go, let it flow...
興奮過後...感到格外寂寞...
maybe I shouldn't be over-react.
cos I feel like I should think about myself now. (worried)
the date being an adult is coming n I WILL NEVER LET MY 18th BE SAD/REGRETFUL!
I WILL NEVER LET THAT HAPPENED.
basically my 17th is a MESS.
everything just suddenly goes wrong.
btw, it's nearly a year already.
sort of proud of myself that I've overcome a year :D
actually this shouldn't be anything proud/even celebrate.
I shouldn't mention it anymore, just let myself to feel the pain once again.
that might be the stupid-est thing I've done in my life.
however, if that never happens, I will never let it go. :)
let it go, let it flow...
Friday, May 30, 2008
Congratulation! =D
omggggg. last night, basically this morning. hahahahaha.
anyway, congra. to my dearest frd :)
finally you guys get together :)
鄒媽媽見到你地一齊太開心! :)
wish you n you all the bestttt :)
lalalalala.
I shall continue the story :P
I'm a bit over react + high these few days usual :P I'm glad to see people getting together, especially all my friends. except one. LOL.
The one next door said I probs will be V. HIGH when my turn comes XD I utterly agree :P
hahahahaha. I found a photo which is taken during the easter holiday from ariel's site :)
i miss you my babe
xoxo,
chingsze
anyway, congra. to my dearest frd :)
finally you guys get together :)
鄒媽媽見到你地一齊太開心! :)
wish you n you all the bestttt :)
lalalalala.
I shall continue the story :P
I'm a bit over react + high these few days usual :P I'm glad to see people getting together, especially all my friends. except one. LOL.
The one next door said I probs will be V. HIGH when my turn comes XD I utterly agree :P
hahahahaha. I found a photo which is taken during the easter holiday from ariel's site :)
i miss you my babe
xoxo,
chingsze
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Why girls' school in aus is so much different than hk?
I had been studying in a girl school more than a decade. no joking.
I never think life sucks in hk even I was in a girls' school.
However, school life in here is totally different.
The only thing that I can tell the difference between ssgc n plc is......
gossip n bitch fight(s) in here are just TERRIBLE.
I always love ssgc as people are so nice n friendly.
seriously, they're friendly.
We are not phony at all.
If we dislike you, we won't get in contact with you.
so straight forward.
I had been here for almost 3 yrs.
I'm totally overwhelmed by EVERYTHING.
Sometimes, I hate myself too.
Doing something that is totally not "me".
Maybe that is the only way I can try to fit into this community.
I wish I can be myself like when I was back home.
I believe culture shock.
Even though sometimes I tried to be/act like part of them, it doesn't work.
...And accept it.
But some of the believes are just wrong.
How can I persuade myself?
Or maybe that's my own problem.
I wish someone would understand my feelings now.
Do not feel like belonging to a place where I am living.
Harsh, tough and difficult.
since when I've been blogging everyday?!?!? LOL.
need a place for me to spill out my deepest feelings.
the best place is probs here :)
I never think life sucks in hk even I was in a girls' school.
However, school life in here is totally different.
The only thing that I can tell the difference between ssgc n plc is......
gossip n bitch fight(s) in here are just TERRIBLE.
I always love ssgc as people are so nice n friendly.
seriously, they're friendly.
We are not phony at all.
If we dislike you, we won't get in contact with you.
so straight forward.
I had been here for almost 3 yrs.
I'm totally overwhelmed by EVERYTHING.
Sometimes, I hate myself too.
Doing something that is totally not "me".
Maybe that is the only way I can try to fit into this community.
I wish I can be myself like when I was back home.
I believe culture shock.
Even though sometimes I tried to be/act like part of them, it doesn't work.
...And accept it.
But some of the believes are just wrong.
How can I persuade myself?
Or maybe that's my own problem.
I wish someone would understand my feelings now.
Do not feel like belonging to a place where I am living.
Harsh, tough and difficult.
since when I've been blogging everyday?!?!? LOL.
need a place for me to spill out my deepest feelings.
the best place is probs here :)
Monday, May 26, 2008
Year 12 is not easy at all.
these few days I tried to be good friends with bio & chem.
hahaha. I think u know what's the outcome of that.
I stress about the exams but I am still procrastinating.
Year 12 should be studying my ass off.
But I'm still v.v.v.v.v. SLACK.
which it is not meant to be...
well. As my neighbour likes the entry "being single is..."
so let me continue the story :DD
Sadly, I am still no goal, no target, nothing happened to me except recently I was entertained by a blog :) currently was watching the BEST "reality show" EVER. lalala.
My next door roomie probs still stuck in the same situation.
the opposite roomie was quickly moving on now. Joy and faithfulness was surrounding her fully.
be continue....
who knows what happening next?
just let it go, let it flow
life will be easier :)
love chingsze
hahaha. I think u know what's the outcome of that.
I stress about the exams but I am still procrastinating.
Year 12 should be studying my ass off.
But I'm still v.v.v.v.v. SLACK.
which it is not meant to be...
well. As my neighbour likes the entry "being single is..."
so let me continue the story :DD
Sadly, I am still no goal, no target, nothing happened to me except recently I was entertained by a blog :) currently was watching the BEST "reality show" EVER. lalala.
My next door roomie probs still stuck in the same situation.
the opposite roomie was quickly moving on now. Joy and faithfulness was surrounding her fully.
be continue....
who knows what happening next?
just let it go, let it flow
life will be easier :)
love chingsze
Saturday, May 24, 2008
I wish I can help in China now.
I have never had such a strong feeling of helping China.
Sichuan needs our help.
Everyday when I read the news, I almost cried.
The only thing I can do now is praying for them all the time.
I know God always loves China and miracles are happening everyday.
I will keep them in my prayer everyday.
Despite, may God bless the coming Beijing Olympics too.
I miss home now.
love chingsze
Sichuan needs our help.
Everyday when I read the news, I almost cried.
The only thing I can do now is praying for them all the time.
I know God always loves China and miracles are happening everyday.
I will keep them in my prayer everyday.
Despite, may God bless the coming Beijing Olympics too.
I miss home now.
love chingsze
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Being Single is...
hahaha. to a lot of u maybe this seems strange.
but to three of us are pretty sad in this situation.
i'm the one who has NO target at all. basically hopeless to everything.
the one next door is always dreaming about the cutiest guy ever. LOL
the one opposite the second one is apparently 'one-sided' love.
we always bring up the topic with no reasons n getting upset n worries about that.
maybe that's part of my life.
luckily wireless go forever n ever.
i still have "something" to depend on.
okay. let's talk something happier :DD
recently obsession is Gossip Girl.
i heart the sexy voice 'you know you love me, xoxo, gossip girl'
either the book or series are awesome.
i wish i'm in NY/London/Milan/Paris/ somewhere flooded with fashion n partiess :D
love, chingsze
but to three of us are pretty sad in this situation.
i'm the one who has NO target at all. basically hopeless to everything.
the one next door is always dreaming about the cutiest guy ever. LOL
the one opposite the second one is apparently 'one-sided' love.
we always bring up the topic with no reasons n getting upset n worries about that.
maybe that's part of my life.
luckily wireless go forever n ever.
i still have "something" to depend on.
okay. let's talk something happier :DD
recently obsession is Gossip Girl.
i heart the sexy voice 'you know you love me, xoxo, gossip girl'
either the book or series are awesome.
i wish i'm in NY/London/Milan/Paris/ somewhere flooded with fashion n partiess :D
love, chingsze
Monday, May 12, 2008
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
F* OFF BITCH!
ngo dim gai chi chi dou yiu zhao nei!
DIM GAI?!?! nei yau ng hai ngo bin gor.
dim gai nei gong mei dou duk...ngo mud dou ng duk?!?!
ngo dou yiu yau g gei gei si garn.
jung yiu mo lah lah bei yun lao!
hor lun nei sor yao yea dou ho gwo ngo but ngo g dou at least ngo ng hai ho chi nei gum ZI C!!
ngo wui always consider other but ng wui ho chi nei gum selfish.
nei hui formal dai sai ahh...ngo ng sai hui mei e +!
ngo sern gong ngo dui nei ho ng hai bit yin!! hai ngo ng sern tung d gum naive gei yun zang.
ng ho e wai bit yun dui nei ho hai bit yin!
我忍夠!
ngo ho loi mo gum bao cho...li chi reli dor tse nei bei li gor opportunity ngo lao yun!!
ngo dim gai chi chi dou yiu zhao nei!
DIM GAI?!?! nei yau ng hai ngo bin gor.
dim gai nei gong mei dou duk...ngo mud dou ng duk?!?!
ngo dou yiu yau g gei gei si garn.
jung yiu mo lah lah bei yun lao!
hor lun nei sor yao yea dou ho gwo ngo but ngo g dou at least ngo ng hai ho chi nei gum ZI C!!
ngo wui always consider other but ng wui ho chi nei gum selfish.
nei hui formal dai sai ahh...ngo ng sai hui mei e +!
ngo sern gong ngo dui nei ho ng hai bit yin!! hai ngo ng sern tung d gum naive gei yun zang.
ng ho e wai bit yun dui nei ho hai bit yin!
我忍夠!
ngo ho loi mo gum bao cho...li chi reli dor tse nei bei li gor opportunity ngo lao yun!!
Friday, April 11, 2008
STOP!
please STOP SAY THAT i wish i can study oversea, because there is NO PRESSURE!
that is TOTALLY WRONG!
if there's no pressure, that person must be crazy or not studying AT ALL.
seriously, PLEASE x 10000000000000000 do not make such an assumption ANYMORE.
this HYPOTHESIS IS DEFINITELY WRONG!
that is TOTALLY WRONG!
if there's no pressure, that person must be crazy or not studying AT ALL.
seriously, PLEASE x 10000000000000000 do not make such an assumption ANYMORE.
this HYPOTHESIS IS DEFINITELY WRONG!
Thursday, April 10, 2008
slack...
i'm SO SLACK!
i think this is not a year 12 should be...
however, this happens on me.
need to find motivations and being SUPER productive this coming termssss.
hmmmm. people in SW has been very emo/moody lately.
want to help them but don't know how to take action.
i'm not a good person to comfort people. i feel bad about that :(
what should i do?
i think this is not a year 12 should be...
however, this happens on me.
need to find motivations and being SUPER productive this coming termssss.
hmmmm. people in SW has been very emo/moody lately.
want to help them but don't know how to take action.
i'm not a good person to comfort people. i feel bad about that :(
what should i do?
Saturday, March 15, 2008
time flies...
it's nearly the end of term 1.
I wish there are "special memories" happened in this holiday.
I admit that I'm so eager to "that".
but know it wouldn't be happening soon or later in this yr.
I feel so lost about "that" after last yr.
sometime I do regret about my decision(s).
I know I shouldn't "live" in those phantasms anymore.
those are not true and whenever I think about it, it hurts me once again.
It's time to let it go.
it's nearly the end of term 1.
I wish there are "special memories" happened in this holiday.
I admit that I'm so eager to "that".
but know it wouldn't be happening soon or later in this yr.
I feel so lost about "that" after last yr.
sometime I do regret about my decision(s).
I know I shouldn't "live" in those phantasms anymore.
those are not true and whenever I think about it, it hurts me once again.
It's time to let it go.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
R.I.P
R.I.P to my dearest grandpa.
it's too sudden for me.
haven't cried so badly after mid-yr of last 2007.
when mum tell me how much you care about me and you don't know how to express to me.
i feel so bad that i can't see you for the last min.
i really want to go home.
i'm so scared i will forget how you look and talk like.
it's too sudden for me.
haven't cried so badly after mid-yr of last 2007.
when mum tell me how much you care about me and you don't know how to express to me.
i feel so bad that i can't see you for the last min.
i really want to go home.
i'm so scared i will forget how you look and talk like.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Monday, February 11, 2008
WOW. it has been a week and more for school already.
so far so good XD except too much work... :S
i miss home.
i miss my family and friends :(
i miss yummy home food :(
i miss everything.
omgoish! VALENTINES' DAY is coming soon :(
as usual...no valentine.
whatever! i will make it to be an awesome day even i've no valentine :)
talk too much :P it's photos time! yay.
let's start with boarder's picnic
Investiture Assembly
FInally i'm a yr 12
so far so good XD except too much work... :S
i miss home.
i miss my family and friends :(
i miss yummy home food :(
i miss everything.
omgoish! VALENTINES' DAY is coming soon :(
as usual...no valentine.
whatever! i will make it to be an awesome day even i've no valentine :)
talk too much :P it's photos time! yay.
let's start with boarder's picnic
Investiture Assembly
FInally i'm a yr 12
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Happy Chinese New Year!
HAPPY CNY!
i prefer to have cny at home.
i miss those days :(
wish everyone have a nice holiday :)
gonna upload heaps of photos 'someday' :P
Thursday, January 31, 2008
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