Lonely Christmas

Longing for the glimpse in my life which is way harder than anything in my life.

I shall congra. my dear friend CHUT POOL! :)
at the same time I shall celebrate once again to my single life.
19 years, I am always seeking for an answer. "WHAT ON EARTH IS WRONG WITH ME?"
however, this is like a closing question. NEVER EVER has an answer...
no matter what others tell me, I will never believe. Not because I dont trust you buddies but I dont trust myself.

Yea, you are right. I have NO confident to myself or anything I do. I act strong but I am not strong either...
I guess that's me...being a single loser all the time. Don't worry about me buddies, I am gonna be okay! Not the first time ;)

That's how I am going to comfort myself in another way making myself emo as well...

Uni and residential applications are basically driving me CRAZY!

as well as other random stuffs pissed me off.
i can't believe i pay for all more than you but you just take it off easily.
don't put on a face that u care about me. i know you feel good to tease about me in that way.
what a shame. i'm not easily beatable!
i don't give a damn.
one day i will take back what i should have.
the most ridiculous thing is....neiwaoneibang, jungngfarnhork. darnhaineigingyinhorehuida! WAO! NGO ZHENG HAI PUI FUK NEI LOR.LI D YEA HAI NEI SIN JO DUK CHUT GEI. NGO NG WUI GUM HAO MIN PEI LOR.

i just want to leave this hell ASAP.

18th Birthday

first of all, I need to thank you everyone who sang hbd song to me n wishes me =)

specially thanks for helen, vivi, phyllis, tina, jess, levina, huan jing n janet.

THANK YOU FOR THE LOVELY PRESENTS. I LOVE THEM SO MUCHHHHH <3 MWAH

but a bit sad of not getting my family's present. i hope it's on the way to here.

pix will be uploaded later =)

neihuijorbin?

ngohosernhosernhoserntungneigongyea...

ngohohaofuigorchimotungneigong...egaupjuupjuhosunfu, jungyiuegayuetleiyuetdormuntai

ngogorkduklipaiggeijomeidoumoyunjunge

ngongsernjoitouhoyundeidarnhaijodggeingjungegeiyea

ngojaoleifartdin

horkyihoichingtungyauchingmoyudfongmeenhaiokay.

人真的是很軟弱...
這個星期的我...崩潰了

活了差不多十八年...
從來沒有承受過這麼大的壓力
自己, 家人和學校...

PLC是一間很強的學校
同學們不是一般的聰明, 而是資優和勤奮好學
無論我再怎樣努力...也永遠不會和他們並列
I'm such a loser...

同時間煩惱大學的application...
對自己的將來很迷茫

a nice voice can seriously touch my heart no matter what nationality you are. :)

still searching.
still waiting.
I wish it will happen to me someday. :P

zomg. I really want to talk to you now cos I regret what I've done.
I know you are the only one who can help me out.
or else I don't think I will link with the group anymore.
[lo sei ]

another week passed.
SACs are coming up like crazy.
Start to cope with the school life again.
I need to stop thinking about home and other stuffs.

Recently motivation is GETTING BACK TO HKU.
it's hard. it's way harder than getting into Melb. U
people might think my idea is quite stupid cos I don't want to stay in melb.
however, I have my reason.
HK is always my home no matter what's happened.
maybe less freedom in there but the most important things are all there.
I will always get support from there.
Facing all the stresses and pressure by myself is simply painful.
I don't like being lonely.

summer vacation seems great in HK.
and I'm still in this hole.

fighting fighting.
I will get through this soon!

since i'm extremely bored from studying chem ( but i still don't get the theory...)
well...i feel like continuing the story of "us" today :P

someone is "thirsty" of searching handsome guys. cos by seeing them will make her feels better. LOL.
2nd one is still crazy about someone. but less obsession then before :P
and me, i'm not thinking about this at all which is pretty sad. however, few days ago, my horoscope told me that 愛情運 : 旅途中邂逅的一位外國人，對方Email給你吐露腹意，讓你大吃一驚。i saw this exactly on the day when i'm back to this shit hole... obviously, this will never happen. if it does, probs i'll be like wtf.

i miss my sms buddy :(
i still have so much to tell u. sadly, this holiday doesn't have enough time. screw it!